Karma

Family time is the best time. I got to spend the day with my boys and I must say having two boys with silmiar diagnoses is hard work but I'm built for it. A mothers work is never done. As a mother of three, I want to make sure everyday is a productive day for my children. To know my youngest son is in the #1 crappiest school in the Bronx with rodents, some miserable people & minions. It saddens my heart, that tells you how these chicks were raised & and how they raised their children; It's sad isn't it? I wonder who I'm keeping up at night, who were the 20 people reading my blog at midnight and the other 18 people reading my blog at 2 a.m. All this reading and no comments. hmm..  anyway till tomorrow... I have more investigating to do so I can ruffle more feathers!!! You know what they say Birds of a feather flock together. 

Karma has no menu. You get served what you deserve.

"The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts, while the stupid ones are full of confidence."
~Charles Bukowski~

Kisses xoxo

Exposed

  Today was a fun filled day with the family. Coney Island, NY Aquarium, and Juniors. Cheesecake, Yum! I took care of business, as always, and thats when it hit me! I have a huge problem... I NEVER HAD AN IEP MEETING for Julius. I had three IEP'S for my other son, William. Both of my boys have similar diagnosis, so with all this madness going on I've been extremely stressed out. I got home, sat down, and read the IEP's that where sent home in my sons book bag by the way. I never had a formal meeting for Julius IEP's, yet i have received two IEPs. I had a conversation with the O.R. (the  psychologist), which lasted for about 2 minutes. She asked if I wanted Julius to receive OT and of course I replied with a "Yes". She replied "Ok" and that was it. That was the end of that, but that does not qualify as an IEP meeting. These chicks have broken the law! Also, on the documents the psychologist is listed as the "District Representative", thats not her position, the IEP Personnel that I have been writing about is known as M.L. She is the one that is suppose to be on the district representatives line. However, she is nowhere to be found and magically the counselor is not on the paperwork. This is beyond ridiculous; the fact that I'm still waiting for the superintendent to get back to me, so we can set up this meeting for my son. This shows the lack of professionalism they all have. They are all completely unqualified and incompetent. The IEP's that I received in his backpack are all fabricated and incomplete. This is far from over and as I said in my last blog, I was going to reveal other people involved and Ms. Psychologist you are it; I have more fish to fry... I clearly needed some down time with my family to gather my thoughts and get things in order, but you all have lost your minds because I'm not done yet!

Have a good night ya'll...

 

Verbal abuse

  Today was an interesting day. I woke up to some great news and I took care of some business. I got a visit from ACS and all went well, as I knew it would. My family went out for dinner, so that meant I got the day off from the kitchen. When we got home everyone got to relax and I got to thinking. I began to think about verbal abuse. I wanted to understand why the perpetrator (the counselor) felt it was okay to verbally abuse my child or anyones child. Verbal abuse create emotional pain and mental anguish. Most people in these situations or relationships try to explain themselves because they feel the perpetrator is rational and they can make the situation better. However, a child can not understand that they are being verbally abused they only understand that the other person hurt their feelings and said something mean, bad, rude or not nice. In my sons case he knew that what was being told to him wasn't nice and it made him feel bad. He sad he was sad and the counselor was being a BULLY. 

  This situation has dragged on for almost a month and I have made several attempts to have the final meeting so my child can be heard, but it seem like even the superintendent has pushed this aside. But I like I've states before I will not back down. I know I have a purpose and I have every intention to fulfill it to the best of my abilities. On July 10th it will make a month since I made the first complaint and followed that complaint with many others. While we wait for my son to get interviewed snd questioned (only the Bd. of Education would see it fit to do so).Who would want to continue to bring up such a traumatic situation in a sons life, for the sake of investigating three or more corrupt individuals. I wouldn't but its "protocol". Unfortunately for them my son remembers everything that affects him emotionally and like I said before what's dark always comes out in the light. 

  If I were them I would want to live under a rock because prolonging this, its only making me dig deeper (what else can they be hiding) I'm sure they've very busy doing terrible things and her minions are more then three so I will make it my mission to seek out every individual that has taken part in this ABUSE TOWARD HELPLESS CHILDREN WITH AUTISM.  I know of a few of you but I am giving myself the time to uncover all the details and get all my facts in order. The Bd.of Ed. is going to have a lot of work to do in PS.25 and I'll be watching because this may have began with my son but I know too many other children that have been affected by these heartless people.

THEIR STORIES WILL BE TOLD, EVEN IF I HAVE TO TELL THEM MYSELF!

"Emotional abuse is just as bad as physical abuse. Worse! You can heal broken bones; you can't heal a broken mind." ~Dia Reeves~

Back to business

  Happy Independence Day Everyone! I hope you all enjoyed your day. Today, was an exciting day, Julius enjoys the water so much that he decided he was ready to learn how to swim. He hopes to become a strong swimmer so he can be a "frog man". We watched a  Navy SEAL training documentary and he was fascinated by the world of a Navy SEAL. So swimming lessons are a must for him. Sure he's five, and has his whole life ahead of him, but who said its too to early invest into his future? As parents we must support our children, after all we are our children's first teacher; until they begin their journey into school, whether it will be public or private, then it becomes the parents and teachers job to collaborate as one to encourage and teach our children. Being a young mother of three awesome children, I know that collaborating with faculty that do not whole-heartedly love their job can lead to a disaster or in this case a blog, several reports, emails and etc. Im sure you get the picture. it is a catastrophe waiting to happen. 

  When I got home today I was tired and in a sea of thoughts. I can't stress the corruption going on in that BRONX school. I remember I was in the main office and I expressed concerns about the busing because the Parent Coordinator(Bus Coordinator too) told me, my son would not be placed on the mini bus in October. I was then told "esa negra no sabe nada " by a Pupil Secretary. That means "that black female does not know anything". Now if you know the Parent Coordinator then you know she's dark-skin. I can not say that the staff in the school are racist but I will surely say that they are certainly prejudice. For an example, I am a pretty Latina, but my hair is course and my name is Shakima by my appearance you can't tell my nationality or race. I speak English very well as I do Spanish but I only speak Spanish when needed. Therefore, I have confused many people and have also heard a great deal of things like the one I described, however when things of that nature are overlooked by the principal that speaks volumes. What does that say about the "boss" clearly she has her favorites (minions) then she has those that she uses but will push off her ship without a problem. If I was on her band-wagon I would be concerned because at this point its every man for himself. So in my opinion, her friends (minions) should be careful. I'm sure with the things I have uncovered she will let her friends drown just so she can try to save herself. Although I don't think thats possible...

"It takes many good deeds to build a good reputation , and only one bad one to lose it" ~ Benjamin Franklin

*In this case many bad deeds.  

Her False Religion

  Some people have used the term "Im a christian" but have used their "christianity" to manipulate, using fear, shame and guilt to  control people for their own selfish gain to influence. But Christianity is about freedom, redemption, grace, and empowerment instead of domineering fear. 

  I have been told by many parents that our principal is a christian, however I know better. I know what a christian is. I know the light a true christian has, we carry it in our souls, its so bright that we can't hide it because others see it no matter how difficult our own situation is we shine bright like the sun. I know this because I am a christian. I love hard and I love everyone. Yes everyone and I fall short sometimes but I also fight as hard as I love. You see when I was a child I learned to be a fighter, I had no choice. I've been through things that no child should ever have to experience  but I lived and I learned in my twenties that I didn't have to carry that hurt around all my life. I would look for love in all the wrong places. I thank God because he found me and held me even when I thought I was alone, he was there. I know this because I should not be here today ( thats another story and one day I'll tell it). I'm telling you about me so you can understand where I'm coming from. I am resilient because God made me that way. I've have been bullied, pushed down, written off and broken but what you do with these things is what makes you who you are destined to be. So, Who are you? What in your life has changed you? Are you a light? 

  In  my life I know a few things to be true. I know that when someone is as bitter as these individuals; its for a reason. They are hurting and their cover is anger. Sadness makes some people feel weak, but anger gives them the feeling of power. So they become what was sown in their lives. However, it is up to them to take control and they have not. Bitterness and resentment rules their lives and that's why we have all become targets but that started a fire in me. I will not let this continue. "God says vengenace is mine." He also says that "The first will be last and the last will be first." In this case the first was the principal and her minions and the last were the children, parents and faculty but we are meant to be first.  So WE will.

When you choose a behavior, you choose the consequences.

~Linda Randall Wisdom~

United

  I started this blog for a few reasons. One reason was I wanted to talk about the children that have had serious issues and their parents  are afraid to speak because repercussions. They move their children, quietly leave or they cry and scream but no one listens until they finally decide to impartial hearings and move their kids to Westchester or Brooklyn schools. These children have suffered and so have their parents. Can you imagine being one of these children?  Having your whole world change after being verbally abused and mistreated. To a child with autism change is one of, if not the most difficult challenge. They are confused and miss their friends and in my sons case he would miss his teacher ( he misses her dearly already). Parents I can't stress this enough we need to stand strong for our children they deserve compassionate people on their side and we need to be warriors for them. 

  Teachers and faculty I'm a parent and I'm sick of the treatment that you receive. How can you possibly work under those terrible conditions? I have heard some of your stories and I know that some of you reading this blog can certainly relate. Loving teachers are like a child's second parent. How can a teacher do his/her job while they are on a restoration of health sabbatical or a leave of absences?  for those parents that don't know this is a pay cut to the teachers salary and they are only granted to appointed teachers. Why is it that some teachers feel the need to retire instead of teach? I know some amazing teachers but they rather quit than be subjected to these horrible work conditions like being threatened for doing whats right? If the principal is corrupt and you go against her and her minions, that can cost you your livelihood. That doesn't seem fair, so why would you be bullied of the career path you chose?

Parents, Teachers and Faculty it is time to rise up and take a stand. Together we can move mountains. Its time to unite!

" Whatever you are physically... male or female, strong or weak, ill or healthy- those things matter less than what your heart contains. If you have the soul of a warrior, you are a warrior. All those other things, they are the glass that contain the lamp, but you are the light inside." ~ Cassandra Clare

Be Fearless

Parents and Faculty,
  
 I need you all to prepare yourselves for what's to come. How? My answer is simple "be fearless!" You will read the word fearless more times then you have ever read it before, especially at a time like this. I say this because I know first hand that life hits you out of no where and can barely leave you hanging on, sometimes. For some of you, you may be tired of fighting but there is freedom in the light. I speak of the light often and its truly one of my favorite topics because life is hard and you all have worked so hard to be where you are today. Some of you have battled with illness and have felt very alone, others have battled depression and you may still be battling with the chains that the darkness left you with... There is freedom; I promise there is. You will never have to feel alone again. You will all have a friend in me always. Let me tell you I'm one tough cookie. I'm resilient and so are you! I urge you to stand up and fight for all the things that you know in your heart to be right. I know that at one point you felt your world was falling apart but it wasn't; it was falling into place. If it wasn't for all of you, my fight would be limited to just my son. As long as you all continue to be open with me I will continue to fight for you. I'll leave you all with this... 

When your on your knees and answers feel so far away , you're not alone stop holding on and just be held ~ Casting Crowns